While You Were Sleeping [Star Trek; Kirk/McCoy] - 2,012
The Intangible Desire [RPF – Football; Tim Tebow/Riley Cooper] - 1,512
77 Years in the Making [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 580
The Ugly Duckling [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] - 3,119
Where No Man Has Gone Before [SupernaturalXStar Trek; Dean/Kirk] - 1,735
Cue the Sun [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] j2_everafter - 16,313
It’s a Sin with a Name [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] help_haiti - 4,502
Oh, but the Longing is Terrible [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] samdeanexchange - 6,489
14 Supernatural and RPF – CW Drabbles [Sam/Dean & Jared/Jensen] - 3,184 (combined)
Pride and Prejudice and Werewolves [Harry Potter; Remus/Sirius] hp_art_tales - 1,858
A Bad Romance [RPF – LJ; me/my flist] - 1,755
Just to Get Struck [RPF – Football; Colt McCoy/Jordan Shipley] - 1,197
On the Pursuit of Happiness [RPF – Football; Tim Tebow/Riley Cooper] - 2,094
10 Mary Winchester Drabbles [Supernatural; Mary/John] spnland - 1,000 (combined)
Being an Us [RENT; Mark/Joanne/Maureen] - 1,175
Two Ficlets [Supernatural] spnland - 1,074 (combined)
Breaking the Girl [Supernatural; turned-into-a-girl!Sam/Dean] spnland - 3,773
Familiar Resolve [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 3,386
All Our Desires [Supernatural; pre-Sam/Dean] Timestamp to And All Was Said - 1,926
And All Was Said [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] help_haiti - 6,706
A Bit of a Pickle [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 2,239
Until Exhausted, Close Our Eyelids [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 698
Washed His Hands and Sealed His Fate [Supernatural; past Sam/Dean] - 1,704
Two White Carnations [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 1,921
Can’t Have Your Brother and Eat Him, Too [Supernatural] - 1,707
All That’s Done’s Forgiven [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] pinch hit for samdeanexchange - 3,381
Being Sam Winchester [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] help_haiti - 5,310
A Sort of Harem [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 1,866
Slow Show [RPF- CW; Jared/Jensen] spn_j2_bigbang - 25,500
Sam Winchester and the Prisoner of Azkaban [SupernaturalXHarry Potter; Remus/Sirius] spnland - 2,257
Making Maps Out of Your Dreams [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 5,321
The Best Is Yet to Be [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] help_haiti - 1,441
Like Puzzle Pieces From the Clay [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 1,648
In the Same Direction [RPF- CW; Jared/Jensen] - 2,634
To Home Afar [Supernatural; Sam/Jess] spn_hetexchange - 7,066
What Part of Which One of Them [Supernatural] spnland - 2,083
Brothers Called Bini [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/Winsister!Jess] - 6,018
Tear Apart (His Fairytale World) [Supernatural] - 3,082
Nobility’s True Badge [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] - 17,722
The Whisper of Temptation [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/young!Mary] - 3,698
Send Out the Morning Birds [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 2,519
Perpetual Motion [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] loveyoulikesin - 30,539
At the Gate (To the Garden of Eden) [Supernatural; unrelated!Sam/Dean] - 6,640
Coupling in the Infinite [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/Jess] spnthreesome - 6,017
But We'll Always Have Our Vending Machines [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] spn_reversebang - 20,800
Two Sam Gets His Soul Back Ficlets [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 1,251 (combined)
Discontinuing a Romp [Harry Potter; Remus/Sirius] rs_games - 4,986
Antioch, Illinois [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] AIDS Walk Charity Fic - 8,838
Cradlesong [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/Jess] polybigbang - 34,102
Inebriated is a Big Word for Drunk [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] - 3,858
No I in Foursome [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen/Danneel/Genevieve] spn_j2_xmas - 8,975
Underneath the Mistletoe [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] Timestamp to Slow Show - 2,510
The Land Before Time [Supernatural; Sam/Dean] - 3,568
Half a World Away [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/Jess] Timestamp to Cradlesong - 11,637
To Kiss the Sweet Rose [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] AIDS Walk Charity Fic - 20,314
Unpublished But Written in 2010:
Along the Road to Anywhere [RPF – CW; Jared/Jensen] – written for j2_everafter 2011 – currently 21,736
The Crumbling Difference (Between Wrong and Right) [Supernatural; Sam/Dean/Castiel] - AIDS Walk Charity Fic - currently 3,187
Total Word Count: 354,163
My favorite story this year: Cradlesong, hands down. I am also very fond of my currently unposted j2_everafter, but Cradlesong is the better story, and the thing I’m most proud of.
My least favorite story this year: While You Were Sleeping, it’s not a fandom I was ever really in or a pairing I ship, and I didn’t really like the person I was writing for, but she bullied me, so I kind of crapped out the first thing that fit her prompt that I could. Bad Cherie is bad!
Most successful story: It’s kind of a tossup with Slow Show and But We'll Always Have Our Vending Machines, but I think Vending Machines wins because it happened a lot faster.
Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion: Cradlesong, which didn’t come as a surprise, I knew there was no market. I wrote it for myself, and I’m so happy I did, and the people who did read it seem to have really loved it, which is more than enough. I also got one of the sweetest recs I’ve ever seen for it. But I do kind of wish more people read it.
Most fun story: Nobility’s True Badge, I didn’t think I wanted to write it, but I think it was the best part of my summer—easy, rewarding, and I got to spend hours working through it with chat all through the night as we did endless writing battles. Thinking about this story makes my heart warm, even though I’m not a huge fan of the story itself.
Story with single sexiest moment: Hmm…that’s hard because I find it kind of hard to get turned on by my own porn. All of Cradlesong, because the whole thing is 50% porn, and I fucking love it. But if you want a moment, I actually think the femmeslash in No I in Foursome is pretty steamy.
Biggest story fail: Cue the Sun for this year’s j2_everafter, which was a really awesome story in my head at the time, but which I put off until the night before it was due, and it’s so rushed and just awful, not to mention that I’ve grown a lot as a writer over the year, so I think it would have been bad in retrospect, even if I’d given it the time it deserved.
Hardest story to make: Perpetual Motion took so much plotting and replotting and pulling teeth and hard work. I don’t know if I pulled it off ultimately, but I do know I worked my ass off on that story and am moderately proud.
The things I've learned this year:
- Never, ever, no matter how good of an idea it seems at the time, run an exchange. Just don’t do it. Ever.
- Posting bigbangs is scary.
- Don’t let other people decide how you feel about your own story.
- I don’t know. I feel like I’ve gotten astronomically better this year. Just the change in how bad my writing was at the start of the year to how slightly less bad my writing was by the summer was a huge jump. I still have serious pacing issues and a lot to learn, but I feel like I’m getting decent and am actually pretty good at character stuff.
- I think I might have an incest kink, you guys. :/ And JFC, you think maybe I like threesomes a little too much?
Wishes and to do list for 2010:
My goal for 2010 was to write 200,000. I wrote 350,000. I feel like setting a reach goal at this point is only setting myself up for disaster. I guess try to get to 375,000? Or maybe write less but actually write well :P
To Do List? Right now, it looks like this:
1. Finish wutendeskind's & morganoconner’s charity fic.
2. Polish j2_everafter.
3. Write last Wincest story for sparklybee for fictictactoe/help_haiti IF SHE EVER WRITES HERS.
4. spnthreesome pinch hits (at least 1, no more than 6).
5. My take on how Sam gets his soul back/what happens after (preferably before show returns from hiatus and makes me even more not canon).
6. Birthday present for ordinaryink, all to do with this madness.
7. At least 2 more timestamps to Cradlesong, because I don’t have a middle name, but, if I did, I bet it would be Self-Indulgent.
8. thepurpledove charity fic.
9. spn_j2_bigbang. I’m probably writing pre-series Sam/Dean amnesia!fic, but let’s see.
10. At some point, a timestamp for this year’s j2_everafter with old!J2’s young people love.
11. …Why does writing a Jared/Jensen/Genevieve/Danneel Narnia AU seem like a good idea right now?
And it is officially 2011—LET’S SEE IF I CAN GET LAID THIS YEAR! (lol, no really. Can I? Please?)