J2: Here in your arms.

I'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song.

Traditionally I do a round-up of all the fic I wrote in a year in the first few days of January. I guess this year it took me 23. Seems about right for the level of will I have to do anything at all these days. Anyway, here this is.

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SPN: Attention! Attention! Attention!

I'd be the last shred of truth in the lost myth of true love.

It's that time again! The one time I show up on LiveJournal every year to reflect on how much I did or didn't write in the previous year. Enjoy?

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By changing some words. The world can move or not by changing some words.

Happy New Year, friends! I guess I officially have become the person who only swings by LJ once a year to post a meme summarizing the past year. If that is to be the case, then here is my post for 2019. XD

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J2: We meet and there are sparks.

It's not all abraca-fuck you and what not. I have a beating heart! I'm multi-dimensional!

Hello, friends! It's me, remember me?! That's okay!! I don't really remember me, either. I've slacked on LJ so hard that it's 28 days into the new year and I'm only now getting around to posting my 2017 fic round-up. In my defense, I spent the entirety of January up until now working on a very late spn_j2_xmas fic that I just posted, and which I'm very happy with the final product of.

Title: Over the Wall
Fandom: Real Person Fic: CW
Characters/Pairings: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17 for explicit sexual content, past drug use, violence (including graphic sexual violence and past physical child abuse)
Word Count: 29,469
Summary: The achronological he said-he said account of Jared and Jensen's jailhouse romance.

ANYWAY, READ MY THING, LOVE ME, look at this beautiful art my friend made for the story.

Also, did I fail to tell you guys that I wrote a timestamp in the Anita Verse?! It's probably the most exciting thing that happened to me in 2017. XD

Title: Mother, May I?
Fandom: Real Person Fic: CW
Characters/Pairings: Jared (Jay)/Jensen
Rating: NC-17 for explicit sexual content (barebacking, impreg kink, sex toys), discussions of past self-destructive behavior including unsafe sex and recreational drug use. This verse deals with gender fluidity and the porn in this installment is M/F.
Word Count: 7,637
Summary: Jensen's been wanting to ditch the condoms for a few months now, but every time he tries to broach the subject, she shrugs it off. He's not sure why. It doesn't seem worth it to push.

Okay, so. Here's the fic round-up, I know no one cares but me, but I'm not letting this tradition die. It's really helpful for me in determining how ashamed I am of past-year!me. (SPOILER: Actually pretty happy with myself at the moment.)

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SPN: This is my life.

You are a box with fragile written on it.

Hello lovely livejournal people! If any of you are still out there...

How is life around LJ these days? I'm having one of the loveliest summers of my life due to my beloved wutendeskind living with me while she works here in DC. We've been having a lot of fun, but not so much that I didn't manage to squeeze out a spn_j2_bigbang this year for the first time in *mumblemumble* years! I think I'm happy with it? IDK, I wrote so much of it in a frantic rush. I AM DEFINITELY HAPPY WITH THE WONDERFUL ART, BECAUSE I GOT TO WORK WITH cassiopeia7 AGAIN.

Title: Shipwreck Between Your Ribs
Fandom: Real Person Fic: CW
Characters/Pairings: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17 for explicit sexual content, mental illness (supernaturally induced depression, suicidal ideation). Consent issues typical of selkie tales are not present between the main pairing but are discussed.
Word Count: 40,913

Summary: AU: All Jensen wanted was a nice month at the beach. What he got was an over-affectionate seal that happens to turn into a hot guy when no one else is around. Jared makes Jensen’s summer better than he ever could have expected, but when his vacation is up and he has to return to the real world, Jensen finds that he's fallen in love with someone who can only truly love the ocean.

I am hoping now that this one is done I can take things a little easier and get a draft finished for rpf_big_bang, which is running this September and everyone should sign up so we can cry together!! (Do I know how to have fun or what??)

Join us for the 2017 Real Person Fiction Big Bang!
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Also it looks like spn_reversebang is firing up again pretty soon! I'm not allowed to claim this year until I finish the last two I still have languishing, so that's my other goal for now until September.

I was in Chicago this last weekend for Sunday of the con and then had the best time running around Wisconsin with dugindeep, zubeneschamali, & rozearkana. The boys were in top form and attacked me with casual intimacy. Now I'm enjoying all the Jared birthday love on Twitter and flitting between excited and nervous about tonight's Conan interview and the SDCC panel. I've felt absolutely overwhelmed with fandom excitement the last few days.

ALSO! Now that I am done with my own bigbang, I am finally allowed to start reading other people's!!! *rubs hands together* Has it been a rewarding harvest, friends? What fics are you loving?
SPN: This is my life.

In post-Soviet Russia, LJ deletes YOU.

Hey all,

Just a quick note to let everyone know that this Russian server migration/shady new TOS thing has me pretty spooked about the future of LJ. I will be migrating all my fic to AO3 one story/day for as long as that takes, so if you are following my account over there, expect a lot of notifications for things you may have already read (or unfollow me, I guess). I WILL NOT be removing my fic from infatuated_ink, nor will I be removing the archive of personal entries on this LiveJournal. I am just preparing in case they decide to delete me for rampant gayness/various other lewdness that goes on in my stories. I don't want my fics to go missing from the internet because I know how much it sucks to go looking for a story you love & now be able to find it.

:( I know I'm not around on here much lately, but this has been the hub of fandom to me since I was 13 years old. That's literally half of my life. So...it's really hard to think of potentially having to say goodbye to this site, especially since I really really hate all the alternate platforms that are currently trendy & how they shape fandom. I still have hope I won't have to. But I am also not going to comply with morality clauses and I really don't want to be caught by surprise one day & have my fic disappear.

I will add links to the AO3 version to each fic post as I go. If there's a particular fic you'd like to see on AO3, I don't really have a plan for what order I'm going to go in, so I'll start with whatever's most in demand. Feel free to comment here with requests. There are a few things I am going to hold off on because I want to rewrite or edit things before I upload them to another platform, but for the most part I'm easy. Let me know what you'd like to see on there. (I'll tell you now that Oh, My Queen! is not going up until Pride & I have plans to do serious rewrites on Vesti La Giubba & Rattling Your Locks before I post them anywhere else.)
J2: They look so young and rich.

And dreamed of para-para-paradise every time she closed her eyes.

Hello, LJ!! Happy New Year! Is that a thing we still say halfway into the first month? Whatever, I will give you my nice year wishes and you will like it!!

I have been...er. Well. In November, an election happened and that sort of drove me off the face of the world and also spiraling into dismay for a while there. As it did, I'm sure, for all of you who are American or hoping not to die in nuclear fallout. I don't particularly want to talk about it, but anyway, long story short, November was really hard and I'm expecting a lot of really hard times in the coming months, so I decided that what I needed was kittens. Yes, soft fluffy kittens, I adopted two of them, a brother and a sister. Their names are Winnie and Chester (haha, get it?). They are wonderful, erotically co-dependent nightmares. They have destroyed my nice apartment and my ability to sleep. But look how flufffffffyyy they are:

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I got them around Thanksgiving and I won't pretend they haven't made the prospect of living in this terrible world a little better. Then another thing happened that made life dramatically better: I discovered a new fandom/OTP. Now, obviously I am a Supernatural/J2 forever girl, it's not like I'm leaving that fandom, but I don't think it's news to anyone that things have been less-than-inspiring in those worlds of late (though I am actually liking Season 12 more than I have liked another season since AT LEAST 7), and it's been so amazing to have something fresh to distract myself from the real world. The fandom is Eyewitness, which has a canon gay couple, Philip/Lukas, who are the best kind of tragic perfection for my angsty heart. Oh, I have fallen for them so hard. I think I've rewatched the 10 episodes we have about 7 times already in the last month? I watched the series finale On Demand on my phone on a bus home from New York because I was so desperate to count toward the ratings. If you haven't watched it, I couldn't honestly recommend it more. Aside from the ship, it's just a really well-handled crime drama with a group of incredibly three-dimensional characters--even the bad guys are interesting and complex.

Also, I wrote an 11k+ fic for them toward the end of last month and have gotten the most incredible, warm welcome from that fandom. Seriously, I was terrified to dip my toes in new water, but it's reminded me of all the best things fandom can be. So happy to have found it. The fic:

Title: Origins
Fandom: Eyewitness
Characters/Pairings: Philip/Lukas
Rating: NC-17 for explicit sexual content between minors
Word Count: 11,382
Summary: Technically, it starts in English class.

Another thing I wrote was this little J2 fic for spn_j2_xmas:

Title: Falling Into Heaven
Fandom: Real Person Fic: CW
Characters/Pairings: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG-13 for language and comedic violence
Word Count: 3,118
Summary: AU: Jensen is an acquisitions demon assigned to get Jared's soul. Problem is, Jared is so clumsy, he might just get himself killed before Jensen has a chance to corrupt him.

I wrote the above while enjoying maybe the best thing that's happened to me since the end of October, which is that I went on a roadtrip to Charleston, SC for a few days over the new year holiday with some of my favorite fandom people, dugindeep, kelleigh, zubeneschamali, quickreaver, & wildgeeseafter3. We had so much fun, even though for the most part all we did was this:


It was so awesome to have a few days of just fangirl hang-out time. :D

Anyway, that's a quick catch up session with me. Right now I'm trying to enjoy the long weekend and keep my mind off what a nightmare my city is going to become for the next two weeks. I live in the absolute worst place to be right now, but at least I'll be on the frontlines for protesting. I'm not sure where I'll find the emotional energy to fight the good fight at this point, but I know I will. I hope you are all doing well and resisting in your own ways as well. ♥

And now, for my own benefit and absolutely no one else's, the end-of-year fic writing meme I do annually, a little bit late because I was out of town and then swamped with work when the actual new year happened.

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I hope 2017 is being kinder to you than 2016 was, friends. ♥

To keep the goddess on my side, she demands a sacrifice.

Hellloooo LJ! Is anyone still out there??? I have been pitiful at updating and won't even attempt to get caught up--I've had a wonderful few months, with tons of traveling, mostly to cons, and then a lot of the same-ol', same-ol' in real life. Mostly I am popping my head in because I've been going through a pretty horrendous dry spell with writing for...well over a year now. I hadn't written a word since the Spring round of spn_masquerade and then suddenly I wrote 12,000 words in one night and finished a story I had been stuck on since 2013, so that felt pretty good and I wanted to share it with...anyone who would listen, basically. XD

Title: Do Androids Dream?
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17 for explicit sexual content, violence, alcohol use, and language
Word Count: 16,398

Summary: AU: Sam has been training to be a blade runner most of his life, ever since a group of rogue replicants killed his mother in an attempt to kidnap him as a baby. Now he's one of the top officers in the L.A. Police Department's Blade Running Unit, with a reputation for being ruthless when retiring rebellious androids. Problem is: Sam's never been as comfortable killing replicants as he pretends to be; growing up with Dean as his primary caretaker and a valued member of the family has left Sam with a weak spot for androids that he knows might get him killed one day. Knowing that doesn't stop Sam from loving Dean, or from wishing his replicant was as human as he acts. Now he's on the trail of Azazel, the yellow-eyed android responsible for ruining his life, but the closer he gets to retiring Azazel and putting an end to his days as a blade runner, the more he learns that there might be no turning back for him and Dean. (Loosely based on Blade Runner)

Even more important than the fact that my failboat ass finally wrote something is that the thing I wrote comes with beautiful, beautiful art by blythechild. The art IS pretty spoilery for the end of the story, so if you plan to read it, I recommend looking at it after the fic. If you DON'T plan to read it, go look at the art anyway!! ESPECIALLY if you are a fan of Blade Runner. It captures the atmosphere so perfectly and is truly better than I deserve. ♥ ___ ♥

I also wanted to mention here since I have not yet that I am currently findraising for the DC AIDS Walk, which gives money to Whitman Walker, a local clinic that does outreach, testing, and care for HIV & AIDS positive DC residents, especially those in low-income neighborhoods. It's a pretty important cause to me as this clinic helped my family a lot when my dad was sick, and fandom has helped me raise a ton of money for them over the last few years. If you are able and interested in helping reach my target (which I am almost at!!), you can find my page here:

That is all I have for now!! Hopefully I will be back in soon with some Halloween fic, I guess that will show whether I've actually dug myself out of this writer's block hole or if the above was just a fluke. In the meantime, I really hope you all have been well (or as well as anyone can be in 2016...what a year, yeesh). I keep up with many of you on Twitter but do really miss my LJ friends. :( TELL ME HOW YOU ARE DOING!!
SPN: This is my life.

Come out come out wherever you are!

Hello lovely authors of spn_j2_bigbang stories J237 and SD10! I am your artist--doing art for this challenge for the first time and both excited and nervous to meet you! Please reach out to me when you get a chance--I only bite if you're into that. ;)