SWAN SONG SQUEE POST
If you don't ship Sam/Dean, I have a feeling you're not reading my post. :D! You may be surprised not to find too many underlines in this post, considering that it was the Wincestiest thing to ever Wincest. Well, you see guys, it's because THE LOVE WAS ALL SO FUCKING CANON that I no longer know where to draw the distinctions between canon brotherfucking and subtexty brotherfucking. ALLOW MY CAPSLOCKS OF LOVE TO SERVE AS REPLACEMENT UNDERLINES. NOTICE THAT 90% OF THIS ENTRY IS WRITTEN IN CAPSLOCK.
First (because it had to be said): I WATCHED THIS EPISODE WITH wutendeskind!! IRL! Can you believe that because of the way hiatuses line up with our vacations, we had never seen a single episode live together? Dirty shit.
RECAP: CARRY ON MY WAYWARD SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONSSSS. This one didn't make me cry like the Lucifer Rising one always does. But that's okay. Because I definitely got my crying quota for the night filled.
Random side note: Olivia's living room TV is huge and HD. Watching Show at school has been ruined for me forever. Who would have thought it could look so fucking fly?
Wow. Yes, Elisa. This is happening. Stop writing stupid, fangirly notes that accomplish nothing.
Olivia convinced me that the Impala was going to die in this episode. So those gorgeous Impala bits that were the best part (second best? IDK, IDK.) of the episode? Made me cry even harder than they were supposed to. Everyone please remember to scorn her the next time you pass her on the street.
IMPALA IS THE MOST IMPORTANT OBJECT IN THE UNIVERSE. CANON. GOD SAID IT, YOUR ARGUMENT IS MORE INVALID THAN THE DEAN/CASTIEL SHIP.
I love getting her history! She means SO MUCH TO ME. And I loved the fond little way he said "Sam and Dean don't know this, but I bet they'd smile." I BET THEY WOULD, TOO.
DEANCAKESSSSSSS. CONVINCING JOHN TO GET HIS BABBYYYY. DEANCAKESSS.
"And this is the end." - SUCH A GOOD WAY TO START THIS EPISODE. Because it is the end, or at least the end of the story as far as the world at large is concerned. They are just going to be two hunters again next season. They won't matter to anyone but each other. And that is all I want out of the world.
THESE TWO. TALKING TO EACH OTHER. THIS MATURE, AND IN LOVE, AND ALL THAT TRUST. No, seriously. I have watched them grow up and it is a thing of beauty. Tears of pride, all up in these eye balls.
"You're a grown--overgrown--man." - Heh heh. This is Dean's way of saying his ass is still sore from what monstercock did last night. :D!
Yes, Dean. Sam is aware that taking care of him was sort of your job. I know he looks like a caveman, but I swear there's some brain under all that skull.
Dean said HE'S THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO GROW UP. OMG. DEAN. Please stay emotionally stunted at six years old forever.
"If anybody can do it, it's you." - Why are you trying to give me a fucking heart attack, Show? DO YOU HEAR THE WAY HE WORSHIPS HIS BABY BROTHER? CAN EVERYONE SEE THAT. YOU GUYS IN THE BACK, WAVE IF YOU CAN SEE. OH, OK. GOOD. JUST MAKING SURE EVERYONE WAS AWARE.
"I let him out, I gotta put him back in." - It's true, baby. Because you are beautiful and perfect and I wanna give you an eskimo kiss and maybe even a butterfly kiss and then quickly lay a smack on your mouth before Jealous-girlfriend!Dean (God bless her pretty face) comes and lays down the law in the form of beating me to death with his eyes.
Castiel has to bleed demons and collect their fucking blood in jugs, guys. He was an ANGEL. He is so so sad to me.
All of the demon blood Sammy can drink = a whole fuckton of demon blood. Can I be dead now, please? CAN WE STOP IT WITH THE DEMON BLOOD NEXT SEASON AFTER DEAN IS DONE KISSING THE REMNANTS OF THIS OUT OF HIS SYSTEM? GREAT, AWESOME. Despite all my bitching last week about it, I will let it happen for the sake of this episode (though I still *really* don't think it was necessary and I think just showing us that Lucifer drank those demons dry as soon as he was in Sam would have been more chilling because then we'd get Sam's sad little reaction and be like "OMG, LOOK AT WHAT HE DID TO SAMMY AGAINST SAMMY'S WILL! WOE!"). But whatever. I am not going to poke at this episode's flaws because SHOW'S FLAWS ARE WHAT MAKE IT MORE BEAUTIFUL. But I am going to silently pout in my corner if I ever see Sam Winchester drink another drop of bitch blood again.
DEAN KNOWS IT'S IN DETROITTT. And, as my wife pointed out in her squee, I love how five seasons later, every single city in the U.S. is still half an hour away. Oh, silly <3_<3.
ANGELS DON'T SLEEP AND CAS IS SNORING. ;_;
Dean Winchester has a bad feeling about this. Oh, Star Wars parallels.
Yeah, if Lucifer hadn't known about the rings I would have been kind of miffed. Maybe next time don't expect the devil to be a moron, Boys. Oh, what's that? There won't BE a next time because THIS APOCALYPSE IS OVER? Well, that's okay with me, too.
Oh, Sam. You're so silly. Of *course* you're coming back. Don't you know how batty the fanbase would go without you?
Sam made Dean promise. HE MADE DEAN PROMISE ABOUT BARBECUES AND FAMILY AND LISA AND DEAN DID NOT WANT TO. BECAUSE SAMMY WANTS NOTHING MORE THAN FOR HIS BIG BROTHER TO FINALLY BE HAPPY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS FUCKING LIFE BECAUSE OF SOMETHING THAT HE CAN HAVE FOR HIMSELF AND NOT SOMETHING HE CAN GIVE SAM TO MAKE SAM HAPPY. SAM, CAN'T YOU SEE THAT'S ALL HE WANTTTSSSS. THEY MAKE ME CRYYY.
DEAN'S ANNOYED, UNSATIFIED SCOFF AT SAM'S "YOU GO FIND LISA." WHEN HE ASKS "WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?" EXACTLY, SHOW. YES, EXACTLY.
Sam saying "Yes, sir." to Bobby really rubbed me the wrong way. It was such a John parallel and Bobby has really never been like that to them? It was just a weird detail, IDK.
CASTIEL BEING ALL "YOU KNOW THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE." AND THEN ALL "OH! I'M SUPPOSED TO LIE!" AND HIS SAD, HUMAN EYES. I saw this in the clip a few days ago and I ran into my mother's bedroom and demanded a hug. It was like that.
"Would you mind not watching this?" - WOULD YOU MIND NOT DRINKING DEMON BLOOD WHEN I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO HAND DEAN THE AMULET OF INCESTUOUS GLORY? My prophecy, she is a fails. HOW DID THAT THING NOT COME BACK THIS SEASON? IF IT NEVER RESURFACES, I WILL NEVER BELIEVE GOODNESS TRULY EXISTS. Probably my biggest complaint about the episode, NEGL.
OMG. Sammy's confidence as they're walking to the building because he's hopped up on demon blood. Make it stop.
"Hey, guys. Is your father home?" - OH, DEANCAKES. ♥_♥
Lucifer is very happy to see you. D: Also--that leprosy is out of hand. He srsly looks like Lucifer at this point, and I mean the cartoony red guy.
OMG. AND THEN THEY MAKE IT WORSE WITH THE FUCKING IMPALA. BABY!BOYS. THEY CAN STILL HEAR THE LEGOS RATTLE. AND DEAN FIXED THE FUCKING CAR BUT LEFT. THESE. THINGS. IN. TACT. BECAUSE HE WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING ABOUT HIS BABY BECAUSE IT'S WHERE HE RAISED HIS BABY. KILL ME SLOWLY--IT WILL HURT LESS.
Lucifer freezes. According to the wife, that is biblical. Interesting, Show! I like it when you talk nerdy to me.
I loved Dean's smart ass "Well, I'll alert the media" and the TERRIFIED face he has on when Lucifer turns to him. HE IS REAL DEAN, AND HE IS TRYING SO HARD TO PLAY NOT!SCARED FOR SAMMY.
I thought that was a very good cover story they had cooked up as to why Sam was saying "Yes." I'm also really glad Lucifer bought it for less than a second. Alright, not-retarded!Satan! \o/
HE MADE A TELENOVELLA JOKE. LOLOLOLOL.
OMGGGG. He pointed out that Sam is full of demon blood. Stopp ittttt. Don't touch me there. NO MEANS NO.
"I win, well, then, I win." - Oh Lucifer, never change.
"A fiddle of gold against your soul says I'm better." - *sings The Devil Went Down to Georgia and enjoys it immensely*
Nice, Lucifer. This whole speech was so good.
Thank God Sam's "Oh, I feel him!" was just Lucifer dicking with Dean. Because I was about to be like "Oh, Jesus. Are we bad to being that bad of an actor again, Jared? DON'T LET ME TAKE BACK ALL THE NICE THINGS JENSEN SAID ABOUT YOUR ACTING IN MY BIG BANG."
BUT NO. JARED'S ACTING THIS EPISODE WAS WONDERFUL. I HAVE WATCHED HIM TRANSFORM INTO A SWAN. GUYS. GUYS. DOES JARED PADALECKI HAVE A FLAW? BECAUSE I HAVE SERIOUS FUCKING DOUBTS.
WRESTLING MATCH IN SAM'S NOGGIN. YOU'RE GONNA REGRET THAT, YOU MOTHER FUCKER. BECAUSE SAM WINCHESTER? IS SAM
SAMMY SAID YESSSS. Cas and Bobby shit themselves.
WHEN HE GETS UP AND MAKES A JOKE OUT OF DEAN'S GRIEF AND THEN WALKS OUT? IT WAS A TWO EYES ARE CRYING MOMENT FROM DEAN. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES THAT'S HAPPENED? ONCE GUYS. AHBL II. THEIR LOVE IS BACK TO SEASON 2 LEVELS ONLY HEALTHIER. NOTHING HAS EVER BEEN SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME IN MY LIFE AS THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THESE TWO CHARACTERS, NOT EVEN wutendeskind'S FACE--SORRY, BB, I SWEAR I'M MOSTLY EXAGGERATING. MAYBE.
HE LOOKED LIKE A SCARED BABY, LIKE HE HAD NO FUCKING CLUE WHERE TO GO FROM THERE. JENSEN ACKLES, WHERE DID YOU LEARN HOW TO ACT? CAN I PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE JUST MAKE OUT WITH YOUR TALENT, IF NOT WITH YOUR GORGEOUS, DICK SUCKING LIPS?
LUCIFER TAKE THAT MUZZLE OFF MY SAMMY AND LET'S HAVE A REALLY HEART BREAKING CONVERSATION.
He made a Luke Skywalker joke at Sammy. Also? The way that Sammy wins in this episode? Is everything I love about Luke Skywalker's character. And if you're wondering, I have a tan on my right arm from the Luke Skywalker Burger King watch I have been wearing for four years straight. I am a pretttty big Luke Skywalker fan.
"M.F.E.O. (literally!)" - OH, LUCIFER. ♥_♥ You should have seen the way Olivia and I both surged forward in our seats and nearly died at this point. We did it together. It was hilar.
Stop appealing to dark!Sam. I fucking hate you.
Die in a fire.
SAM WINCHESTER. IS SO SELF-LOATHING. STOP IT, SAM. REMEMBER WHEN YOU BELIEVED IN YOURSELF BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS DEAN PUT INTO YOUR HEAD WHEN HE RAISED YOU? OMGGGG. Sam is going to believe in himself again next seasonnnn.
HDU. HDU. DO NOT CALL DEAN FOSTER CARE. SAM BELONGED, OKAY? SAM BELONGS TO DEAN. SAMMY IS DEAN'S BABY AND SAM KNOWS THAT, EVEN IF HE THINKS HE DOESN'T DESERVE IT, HE KNOWS IT.
Running from Dean = Running to Lucifer. I support this conclusion.
SAMMY DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING FROM YOU. HOW COULD YOU THINK HE WILL EVER BE HAPPY, YOU SHIT HEAD. THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS THAN HAVING MOM AND DAD BACK. FOR EXAMPLE: THE SHAME DEAN WOULD FEEL IF SAM ACCEPTED THINGS FROM LUCIFER. OH, SAMPANTS.
Sam's entire fucking life was Azazel and Lucifer's toy. I will never be able to comprehend the depths of Winchester sorrow.
Cas wants copious amounts of alcohol. Alright! Coping, the Winchester Way.
AND DEAN IS NOT GIVING UP. BECAUSE HE IS DEAN AGAIN (and yeah, I'm still fucking flailing over it 4 episodes later. If you think you're not, you're lying.)
CAS AND BOBBY, STOP BEING NAYSAYERS. THERE IS NOTHING YOU COULD EVER SAY OR DO TO MAKE DEAN ABANDON HIS BABY BROTHER.
"Are we having fun now?" - HE DRANK THEM. AND DID YOU SEE HIS HANDS? I BET HE PUT HIS HAND THROUGH THEIR CHESTS LIKE IN HAMMER OF THE GODS AND RIPPED IT OUT OF THEM. *terrified* AND SAMMY'S FACE. SAMMY'S FACE. HE'S SO SELF-LOATHING OF THAT PART OF HIM THAT LIKED HIM. AND SO SO SAD. AND SO BEAUTIFUL, WHY SO SAD AND SO BEAUTIFUL? JARED, I WANT TO FRAME YOUR PROGRESS AND HANG IT ON MY WALL SO I CAN DIRECT ALL OF MY GUESTS TO IT AND TELL THEM ALL ABOUT YOU.
"Sam used to insist on honest work, but now he hustles pool--like his brother." - OMG. STFU STFU. IT'S SO TRUE. IT'S SO THEM. IT'S SO BOYS. I'M SO CRYING AGAIN. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF CRY AGAIN WHEN I HAVE NOW WATCHED THE EPISODE THREE TIMES AND IT IS NEARLY 12 HOURS AFTER THE FUCKING SHOW AIRED? WHAT THE LITERAL FUCK IS THIS SHIT?
Jayhawks? Are the University of Kansas team. They drove two days to see the University of Kansas play a game because they lived there for all of ten minutes and still try to tie it down as home. Of. fucking. course.
I have used my detective skills to put this one together: since the Jayhawks are a college team, it can be basically any sport they drove to watch. Because Sam makes Dean promise to go to *football* games and because the sport they would have been watching in December in AVSC is clearly football, we can deduce that Sam and Dean are, after all, more of football guys than anything. Excuse me for a minute, will you? *runs a victory lap with Tim Tebow*
AND THEN THEY SAT. UNDER THE STARS. ON CLEAR NIGHTS. NOT TALKING. BRB, BEING CRUSHED BY SAM AND DEAN'S EPIC LOVE.
THEY NEVER HAD FOUR WALLS, BUT THEY WERE NEVER TRULY HOMELESS? YES, CHUCK. IT *IS* A GOOD LINE. IT IS A VERY GOOD FUCKING LINE. Ok, when the spnland meta challenge was up, I very nearly wrote my meta on how the Impala was going to save the world because it's Dean's mommy and Dean is Sam's mommy. I didn't write it, so Eric Kripke did. UPGRADE. BUT YES. THIS IS EVERYTHING I LOVE ABOUT THE IMPALA, AND OH, YOU GUYS KNOW HOW WARM THE SPOT IN MY HEART FOR HER IS. YOU GUYS. I can't handle this episode. Really. I am not qualified to write a review about it. Fucking Victor Hugo needs to be raised from the grave, he is worthy of this shit, not me.
Becky didn't work out. He respected her too much. OH, IS THAT WHY YOU'RE DUMPING US, KRIPKE? ;_;
"But I saw it anyway." - Well, of course you did.
The battle will take place under the high noon sun? Seriously? Really show? I dare you people to try and convince me the writers room is not in our fanmixes, shipping our incest.
In conclusion? Sam is a runner and Dean is his father's son. Also worth mentioning? Dean Winchester built a house inside of Sam
THE BATTLE TAKES PLACE IN LAWRENCE. I like it.
Dean's going to do something stupid. He has that look. \:D/
HE IS GOING EVEN IF IT IS HOPELESS BECAUSE NO WAY IN HELL IS SAM DYING ALONE. THE LOVE. THE LOVE. I CANNOT FUCKING STAND IT.
HIS ARGUMENT AGAINST CAS AND BOBBY'S LOGIC?
"IT'S SAM." <=== HEY GUYS, REMEMBER WHEN THIS WAS DEAN'S ANSWER TO EVERYTHING?
THAT TIME IS NOW AGAIN. I. NEVER. WANT. TO. MOVE. *rolls around in it*
Castiel doesn't want Dean to have to see Sam die. Casssss. BUT DEAN WILL NOT LET SAM DIE ALONE. DEANNNN. And just so everyone remembers...SAMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
Adam!Michael!!! HE IS A GQMF. Jake Abel, A++ this season. You're awesome. I want to buy you a nice steak dinner some time if you'll allow me.
Lucifer doesn't want to fight his big brotherrrr. Michael's obvious love for him but overall being such a big dick anyway. I didn't ship it until this episode, but do I ship it? Yes.
I LOVE THEM STANDING THERE TALKING TO EACH OTHER LIKE ROBOTS. ANGELS.
"Let's just walk off the chess board." - My kink for chess metaphors, you're doing it right. Also Jared's kink for the record. And I can't express how awesome and brilliant I think it is that THIS is what Lucifer wants.
Always blaming everyone else, Lucifer. IT'S SO FUCKING TRUE.
"We were together--" - Hee hee. Were you really, Michael? I was just beginning to suspect that.
I like that Lucifer pointed out that nobody makes God do anything. But God on this show is such a wreck, I'm sure Lucifer caught him off guard more than he wanted there to be a devil. He wasn't doing it to you, dude.
"You're a monster, Lucifer." - YOU'RE A MONSTER TOO, SHITHEAD.
DEAN. FUCKING. WINCHESTER. WITH THE BLASTING MUSIC AND DRIVING INTO THE MIDDLE OF THIS BATTLE LIKE THAT. DEAN WINCHESTER. DEANCAKES. DEAN DEAN DEAN DEAN DEAN. DEAN.
"Am I interrupting something?" - ONLY THE TWO SECONDS WHERE I THOUGHT THERE WAS A PLOT OUTSIDE OF MY EPIC LOVE FOR YOU.
A whole mountain of stupid? ONLY BECAUSE YOU CAN'T COMPREHEND PERFECT LOVE, ASSWIPE.
"You no longer have a part in this story."
Dear Adam Milligan,
First of all, I want to apologize about your life. Being a Winchester must be truly awful when you aren't raised to expect all the woe you will inevitably have to deal with at some point.
At the same time, I am incredibly glad you exist. You are my favorite plot device in the history of plot. I like you better than Milk and Cookies. Sam Winchester is the brother with a role to play. Dean Winchester's existence is being Sam's big brother. We gave him a role, too, this season. You got rid of that role so that Dean could JUST be Sam's big brother in this moment. THAT IS ALL I ASK FOR IN THE WORLD.
Epic Love and Sparkles for Your Face,
"Adam, if you're in there--I am so sorry." - Dean Winchester, if you're reading this, I AM IN LOVE WITH THE GOLDEN COLOR OF YOUR SOUL.
Michael is next on Dean's list? OH YEAH, BUT SAM TOOK CARE OF THAT DICK, TOO.
"Hey! Assbutt!" - I'm on rewatch #4. This has still not ceased to be hilarious to me. Remember those twelve seconds when we thought this was really how Cas left the show? I was pissed. Because it was so unemotional. And then Olivia pointed out (because we were all watching it together and stuff) that that is exactly how Misha Collins wanted to leave the show. And everyone in the room was like "Fact."
"Castiel, did you just Molotov my brother with holy fire? No one dicks with Michael but me." - 1. MOLOTOVLOLZ. 2. PROTECTIVE BROTHERS. THIS SHOW. I CAN'T EVEN.
"Sammy, Sammy. It's okay. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you. I'm not gonna leave you."
...Dean Winchester. Looking up at LUCIFER. Saying these beautiful things. TO LUCIFER. Because Sam is in there. AS SAM IS KILLING HIM, DEAN WINCHESTER, SAYING THESE BEAUTIFUL THINGS. AND AFTER HIS BODY JUST KILLED BOBBY AND CAS. HE STILL LOOKS UP AT THIS MONSTER AND TALKS TO HIS BABY BROTHER. DEAN WINCHESTER.
DEAN WINCHESTER, YOUR CHARACTER CANNOT EXIST. IT IS NOT ALLOWED TO EXIST AND BE SO PERFECT AND DEAN, JUST WHY DO YOU EXIST? I NEED A MORE GOLDEN COLOR THAN GOLD FOR THE COLOR OF THIS MAN'S SOUL.
I loved the way Jared delivered "He's going to feel the snap of your bones." and "we"ing himself and Sam to hurt Dean and when Dean first started being golden and promising him gorgeous things, Jared made this perfect "I don't get it" face. ISUYSFTDHJDFHSGYFAUIDNFHB THE TWO OF THEM ARE TRYING TO KILL ME.
Wow, you people managed to make JENSEN ACKLES look unattractive. Not even gonna lie, I am impress. Good job, make up people.
Sam saw this. And the toy soldier. And the fanvideo of Epic Wincesty Love. And then? He bested LUCIFER. HIS LOVE FOR DEAN AS SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF THE IMPALA BESTED LUCIFER. MY OT3? SAVED THE MOTHERFUCKING PLANET. NOT A FUCKING DEMON. NOT YELLOW EYES. NOT JUST ANY OLD ARCHANGEL. LISTEN TO THE WORDS I AM SAYING, OKAY? THEIR LOVE? SAVED THE PLANET. BECAUSE IT IS STRONGER. THAN LUCIFER. IF YOU DON'T SHIP IT, GET EXAMINED.
SAM REASSURING DEAN, PROMISING THAT HE HAS LUCIFER. THAT LITTLE ATTEMPT AT LOOKING PROUD AND CONFIDENT FOR DEAN'S SAKE. AND THE FACT THAT HE IGNORED EVERYTHING MICHAEL SAID BUT JUST KEPT LOOKING BACK AT DEAN LONGINGLY LIKE LEAVING HIM IS THE ONLY REGRET HE HAS. ;_;
AND THEN THEY TRAPPED HIM DOWN THERE. WITH LUCIFER. AND I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE ALL SUMMER. BUT I WAS WRONG. And you know what? I'm not even all pissed like I promised I would be. Because Michael's down there with him. And I will remain convinced until Show Josses me that Michael and Lucifer killed each other down there and all my complaints about Lucifer leaving on can DIAF and SAM WINCHESTER'S GOODNESS AND INCESTUOUS LOVE IS STRONGER THAN LUCIFERRRR.
Dean's head falling back and the look on his face of PURE DISAPPOINTMENT that Sam won the struggle. Because of what it means for Sam. Jensen, how do you deliver so much emotion through that much make up? Seriously, guys, he's even freakishly talented when he's *NOT* the prettiest pretty to ever pretty. I AM HAPPY TO KNOW THIS.
Oh, thank Heavens. Cas fixed Dean's pretty. It's gonna be okay. Oh, and he brought Bobby back, too. I guess that's alright. But mostly, thank God for the pretty. *_*
"Cas, are you God?" - LITTLE BOY!DEAN, ARE YOU THE SADDEST THING TO EVER EXIST?
*sigh* Alright, I get it with Castiel. We didn't kill him off to keep his fans happy, but we mostly wrote him off to keep the haters happy. You know who's not happy? Me. He's back to being a dick angel. It makes sense for him, don't get me wrong, but I loved his fall--I loved the person he was becoming. And this is sad for me.
I do like that he's like, an archangel now. And going to be running Heaven.
KRIPKE. TALKING TO US. METAING ABOUT ENDINGS. THROUGH CHUCK. SAYING GOODBYE TO US. BECAUSE HE LOVES US SO MUCH. KRIPKE, KRIPKE. DON'T LEAVE ME. I CAN CHANGE. *clings* I loved what he said about endings--it's so true. Once your characters really get minds of their own, even God can't control what they're going to do. It's beautiful.
You wrote yourself into the Show as God. OH KRIPKE. EVEN M. NIGHT ISN'T THAT LEVEL OF DOUCHEY. ♥_♥ I totally did not get the Chuck = God thing until Olivia called me on the way home and told me about it. And then I was like "No. No. Oh, God. You're so fucking right." I was like "IT WAS JUST KRIPKE LEAVING US. IT WAS A METAPHORICAL POOF." No it wasn't monkeybrain. Of course Eric fucking Kripke is gonna make himself God. *shakes head*
Unfortunately, this kind of makes me like Chuck's character less. Because he was dicking with my Boys all along. Like Kripke does, only Kripke is allowed to. Chuck is a fucking loser with no right. He was Clark Kenting it, as Olivia put it. Which, yeah, okay. And if you're going msake yourself God, you better be less flattering about it. Also, now we know the answer ot all of the great philosophic questions raised in the theological doctrine of Joan Osborne. But still. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I think it got into bed and touched me in sacred places without permission.
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW ANYONE CAN DISLIKE THIS ENDING, GUYS. GOD HIMSELF told us that EVERY FIBER IN DEAN'S BEING not just wanted to go on a bender--he wants to be DEAD without Sam. He wants to be looking for Sam. NO PART OF HIM wants Lisa. But he is putting Sam's wishes before his again. Pre-Show and Season 2 levels of unhealthy Love. He does not even indulge what HE wants (the down ward spiral) FOR A SECOND. HE IMMEDIATELY GOES TO LISA BECAUSE HE MADE A PROMISE TO SAM. THAT IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL AND SAD, I CANNOT EVEN FATHOM IT CORRECTLY.
His voice all cracky and miserable as he tries to convince her that he's happy because that
s what he told Sam he would be. OMFIGHDHGDIFJGD. JENSEN. I even like the use of batman voice for it, BB. Her response? She continues to make no fucking sense to me. I get it from Dean's end, I really do. And I love so much that Sam gets it from Dean's end. But from her end? You are letting an alcoholic emotionally unbalanced stranger into your house with your child. BAD MOJO.
Did you see Dean throw the kid the bread from the window? I AM SO GLAD WE ARE ACKNOWLEDGING THAT THIS IS HIS KID. Dean Winchester? Needs a kid. And I want him and Sam to raise ittt. I know that we are going to leave it behind pretty early in Season 6. But hopefully we don't kill her because that would be really mean and I want her to die when Sam and Dean can have him and settle down AND RAISE A FUCKING KID. AND WHEN *I* AM SAYING THEY NEED A KID, THEY NEED A FUCKING KID, BECAUSE I DO NOT WISH THOSE THINGS ON EVERYBODY.
This felt so much like a series finale and had it been, I would be satisfied. It left that stupid domestic life open to Dean for people who think that's a good ending, but it also had my Sammy there creeper!watching him and it leaves SO MUCH for us to play with. Playing with it until the next season starts is going to be fantastic. I don't even really care at this point which of the two directions I predict it goes in, because either one will have so much beautiful Love, especially the way we left them off, so trusting and adoring and perfect together.
1. Sam sees Dean kept his promise, walks up to the door, offers him the Samulet, and they make out.
2. Sam sees Dean kept his promise. Stupidly thinking this is what Dean wants and, thinking he is tainted by all of the demon blood still in him (see: broken street lamp), he stays in that town for the summer hiatus months just watching Dean and trying to give Dean happy until Dean discovers him and feels betrayed but eventually they see that it was all for epic love and that neither of them wants anything but each other and then probably some on screen sexytimes and cuddling would be good.
I have so much faith for next season because this was the perfect set up for a back-to-our-roots season, even down to Sam breaking into Dean's happy domestic life to mirror Dean breaking into Sam's in Pilot. Don't worry if you want to read that as much as I do--wutendeskind is on it.
On the whole? I can now finally relax and say that this was a great season. I need to do my rewatch (which I cannot wait for) to know where I rank it, but it was a great one. Watching shows live is still not for me, though.
I want next season so bad. I don't know what I did before this show, but I do know I am going to go pretty fucking bonkers over the next few months without it. If they really do go through with the midseason thing and we have to wait until February, I will die waiting, even if it means no Hellatuses. I NEED MY BOYS AGAIN ALREADY.
What will I be doing all summer? SO. MUCH. FANFICTION. I need all of the Wincesty fanfiction ever. I am going to read like...30 of the 66 Wincest big bangs, AND YOU KNOW THERE ARE NOT BOUND TO BE THAT MANY THAT DO NOT HAVE THINGS THAT SQUICK MY DELICATE FLOWER ASS. Also writing. So many plot bunnies. Guys. So much fanfiction is required. So much. Are you writing me some right now? WHY AREN'T YOU WRITING ME SOME RIGHT NOW? FEED ME, SEYMOURS.
In Conclusion: THE LOVE THAT SAVED THE WORLD.
Oh, wow. This squee post is done. I don't even want it to be done :'(